Aku Dia & Kamu

Sudah hampir setaun berlalu..cepat jer mase berlalu..da makin meningkat usia..da makin byk belajar..da makin update skrng..sekejap jer..Aku Dia & Kamu da makin matang..

Masa berlalu, masing-masing dgn haluan sendiri..ape khabar dia? Ape khabar kamu? Khabar baik kah aku? Kadang-kadang terasa ingin dgr cerita baru..tapi aku biar kan hasrat tu..hidup dia hidup kamu pasti berbeza..masa mengajar kita..

Jauh di sudut hati aku..aku simpan ukiran kenangan..yg indah ku bawa bersama..yg pedih ku tinggal kan..dia kian sepi..temui bahagia mungkin..dan kamu masih tercari-cari..semoga berjaya..

Dan aku..masih tak dapat relakan hati ini..aku masih dgn harapan aku..masih berusaha dgn belajar..byk lagi perlu aku lalui..sementara aku susah payah di sini..biarlah aku sendiri..kwn peneman baik aku..tuhan aku perlu lebih kenali..mungkin ini yang terbaik..

Aku yakin suatu hari nanti..aku akan faham..keinginan itu bkn hak milik..tapi pengorbanan itu yg memiliki hati ku..

P/s : 'Awak, bila Saya boleh jumpe Awak?'

Kerana Hati Itu...

Pernah tak tgk hati? aku pernah tgk..adekah hati itu comel sebesar tapak tangan kecik kite..mcm yg kite bayang kn..tak..hati yg ade dlm bdn kite besar..dan tak comel..cume warna merah..penuh dgn darah..walaupun tak cantik..tp kite tak boleh hidup tanpa hati..ade nyer hati utk pasti kn kita masih bernyawa..utk kita merasa kehidupan ini..kerana kita ade perasaan..dan perasaan itu dtg dari hati..hati itu terlalu complicated..semua perasaan dtg dari hati..benci syg marah suka senang hati susah hati sakit hati..aahh..byk nyer pasal hati..

selama aku blaja pasal hati dari segi medical..terlalu besar fungsi nyer..hati lah yg buang toxic..hati lah yg menyuci kn darah..hati lah tmpt menyembuh kn luka..walaupn kita tahu betapa penting tugas hati..kenapa msih lagi kita meluka kn hati kita? kenapa kita mengotori nyer? adakah kita ingin hidup tanpa perasaan..adekah itu kesudahan nyer..padahal masa kita kecik2 dulu..kita naif..kita senyum..dan sekarang bila kita kenali dunia..kita fahami perasaan itu..tidak kah kita ingin kn perasaan naif, suci itu kembali..aku rindu kan mase lalu..

hurmm..lepas kn perasaan benci itu..buang kn rse dengki itu..jgn sakiti lg hati..mase tetap berlalu..dan jika tidak kita berubah..lame kelamaan..hati itu dah tak mampu menampung kerosakkan..dan mungkin kamu dah tak akan merasa gembira lagi..setiap tindakan itu dtg dari hati..kerana hati tidak pndai menipu..fikiran itu halusinasi..fikiran boleh menipu..yg paling interesting pasal hati..kita boleh derma kan hati..hebat kn? betapa penting nyer hati itu pada kita..tp jika ade org laen yg perlu kn..walaupn secebis..tp secebis hati kita mampu menyelamatkn org lain..rupe nyer hati ini boleh di kongsi..bukak la hati utk dirimu dan org sekeliling..jgn penting kn diri sndiri.. dan bila di beri kesempatan jgn pula main kn hati org lain..kerana hati kamu, hati die, berharga..

Over

Pejam celik pejam celik..hari berganti hari..smpai ke saat ini..aku kat India..dah 7 bulan kau fly..fuhh..lama la jugak..mengeluh kat diri..kat buku-buku yg tak terbaca semua..kat masa yg berlalu..kat bantal yang makin busyuk..kat kenangan indah..pengalaman pahit..haishh..macam-macam..susah senang itu lah aku..yang mendewasakan aku..dah penat terluka..dah penat emosi..dah letih berharap..aku akan mula kan cara hidup baru..haha..aku nak menikmati masa muda aku..ha`ah..kan dah meningkat setaun lagi umur aku..21.."black jack" memang nice la..5taun lagi..ok..aku akan bertahan..nak settle cepat-cepat medic ni..then balik tempat yang sepatut nyer aku berada..m`sia..bawaku pulang bila aku berjaya! aku dah tak akan bagi ruang untuk hati aku ni rindu kat orang yang aku keciwa di india ini..i`m already over you..that i promise you..aku dah penat memendam rasa benci..haha..now..i just want my everyday is the sweet day..

The Reason

When we late for our meeting..then people will going to stare at us with a question mark..
when we didnot finish our work..then people will question about your credibility..
when we bankurpt in our investment..people going to wonder where is the fault..
when we cannot satisfy the people..then tons of question will point toward us..

Why ?? Why ?? Why ?? Why ?? Why ?? Why ?? Why ??

then..basiclly,the next action will be.."the reason of why"

Reasoning is an important aspect of human development..
-when we are unwilling to reason we are stubborn..
-when we cannot reason we are foolish..
-when we are afraid to reason we are a slave..
-when we refuse to reason we are ignorant..

However, intellectual reasoning is not complete and often not good enough..when we contrast our reasoning with the great thinkers then in the eyes of those high intellectuals..our reasoning may not be profound..then, since our reason will be foolish to those high intellectuals..so are you going to give up on reasoning now?? Never! because sometime you need to defense your opinion if it is critical in your point of view..that why, in order to progess..we need to reason and think 'freely' & 'deeply' but avoid making unnecessary judgments..

Accept things winthin our capacities.. it is unwise for us to claim what we have learned as absolute truth at once..Allow our mind to reason things out..Allow it to grow and develop..do not close our mind immediately.."..what we have accepted now as truth may later change according to our experiences, maturity, and deeper understanding.."

Use common sense to understand things properly..Unfortunately..common sense is not that common among people..haissh~!! common sense comes from experiences in life..they in turn come from our willingness to make mistakes..to learn through trial and error..and to learn from every life-encountering experience..common sense is likened to muscle..to develop its strength we must use it often enough.

Angel is talking with Demon..and here is the conversation :-

Angel : Hey Demon, what is the secrect of your success?
Demon : Two words.
Angel : What are they?
Demon : Right decisions.
Angel : But how do you make right decisions?
Demon : Common sense.
Angel : And how do you get common sense?
Demon : Two words.
Angel : And, Demon..what are they?
Demon : Wrong decisions!

Sigh "definately demon always do wrong decision laa..that why he was called demon maa.."

Warkah Perantauan

menghitung hari detik demi detik..
setiap mase itu kan berlalu jua..
siang di tenggelamai malam..dan..
malam di tenggelami siang..
hari ini di ganti esok..
esok pula di ganti lusa..
dan hari-hari esok entah kita masih berjumpe..
kian berlalu sudah episod di malaysia..
kini..
aku pula akan pergi..
pergi ke mane?
hurmm...pergi belajar ilmu dunia..
jauh sedikit dari pangkuan keluarga..
jauh sedikit dari malaysia..
tak mengapalah berjauhan sementara..
kata orang tua..
jauh di mata..tapi biarlah dekat di hati..
hati aku tiada kesedihan..
cuma keraguan itu ada..
haish~ aku mengeluh..
apakah mampu aku lalui perubahan mendadak itu nanti..
setelah sekian lama butakan mata dan fikiran..
cukuplah berehat..
bangun! bangun！bangun!
pagi yang gelap kini sudah terang..
ambil langkah mu..
dan mula berjalan..
doa kan aku sepanjang ini..
biar aku pergi sebagai merpati putih..
dan jangan harapkan aku balik sebagai gagak..
moga sesudah itu..
aku pulang dengan Doc. Hakim..

Xia Yu Tian 下雨天

下雨天了 怎么办 我好想你
我不敢打给你 我找不到原因
为什么失眠的声音 变得好熟悉
沉默的场景 做你的代替 陪我等雨停

it's raining what should i do, i miss you so
i don't dare to call you, i can't find a reason
why have the sounds of insomnia
become so familiar
the silent scenery is your replacement
waiting for the rain to stop with me

期待让人越来越沉溺 （疲惫）
谁和我一样 等不到他的谁
爱上你我总在学会 寂寞的滋味
一个人撑伞 一个人擦泪 一个人好累

anticipation makes one more and more indulged (more tired)
is there anyone like me
i'm unable to meet that someone
in love with you i've always been learning
the taste of loneliness
holding an umbrella alone, wiping my tears alone, it's so tiring being alone

怎样的雨 怎样的夜
怎样的我 能让你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能够有你的体贴

what kind of rain, what kind of night
what kind of me will make you miss me more
how heavy need the rain be and how dark the sky
before i can have your concern

其实没有我你分不出哪些差别
结局那还能多明显
别说你会难过 别说你想改变
被爱的人不用道歉

actually, without me you can't tell the difference
how much clearer can the ending get
don't say you will be sad
don't say you want to change
the one being loved needn't apologise...

Sigh "...谁和我一样 等不到他的谁--is there anyone like me, i'm unable to meet that someone..."

It was for You

Woman was made from the rib of man,

She was not created from his head to top Him,

Nor from his feet to be stepped upon,

She was made from his side ; to be close to Him,

From beneath his arm ; to be protected by Him,

Near his heart ; to be loved by Him.