Resah

hurmm....ish, xtenang r..mcm2 prasaan dlm jiwa nie...sumtime ble mkin tgk...mkin terase hati nie..ble nk smpai turn aku??...knpe lme sgt??...berbaloi ker ape yg d tggu??..haish...kate org penantian tu menyeksakn..mmg pn..cume aku hrap pertemuan itu nnt dpt mengubat rse sakit nyer setia menunggu nie..ape bleh aku buat..itu sume kuasa tuhan...hidup nie biar la setiap detik itu bkn yg kite tentukn..tp Allah yg tunjukn jln...aku makin tgk gmbr2 tersebut..waa..bes nyer...dyorng dah ade hala tuju..rse gembira utk dyorng..tp hati kecil aku xdpt nk sembunyi rse cemburu..hey
alangkah elok nyer kalo aku pn merase keadaan yg sme bersme dyorg...bkn mksud nyer berada bersme d tmpt dyorng...tp mksud aku kt sni sme2 melalui proses yg serupa..sekurang2 nyer aku xde r ketinggalan jauh..aku rse buang mse terlalu byk..lgpn hari esk ku msih kabur...risau aku..huuu~

berharap...berdoa...sumtime cube nk lupekn..tenang seketika..itu jela..tp ble kebosanan melanda..resah itu kembali...aiseyhh..asl la aku dlu plih jln nie, kalo aku plih jln yg 1 ag mybe xkn end up like this..ble dah fedup..aahhh aku mls pk ag...errkk...xnk pk r..tggu je ape kesudahan nyer...tgh aku byk komplen..then sumone menyedarkn aku...
"hey!!! ko nie asyik merungut aje...aku xske r..ko cm x redha aje...jgn d kenang bende yg lpas..sume tu dh xkn kembali..itu sume angan2..angan2 xkn bwk ko ke mane2..cume wat ko tertipu aje..ko dh plih jln nie..jd xpyh r nk persoalkn knp x plih jln yg 1 ag..itu bkn hal yg ptt ko rsau kn!..isi mse ruang ko tu spaya x bosan."
perhh...bru r aku sedar..watpe la aku nk cemburu kn sgt..itu dah jd jln dyorg...mybe jln aku lbih menarik drpd dyorg...cume mse yg wat kn aku perlu blaja bersabar..insyaAllah..ade nyer rezeki ku..ameen~

sigh "hati ku tertggu2 khabar dri mu setiap detik, sumtime buat aku resah jgk...huishh~pape pn akn ku hargai prasaan istimewa itu"

Should There Be Catalyst

catalyst..too increase the reaction faster..in other way round...to make easy for sumthing to happen...catalyst can help in bonding to happen..but it also help to make it break..so, are they should be a catalyst in every relationship?? well, what i mean here is the third parties..it can be our friends, family, God or anonymous...

in my point of view..i do like the 'catalyst'...but i`m not going to be it b'cos not suit me well...to be the catalyst is not easy acctually...you need to separate the emotion from the relationship..so that you not giving the wrong advise or the most should avoide thing is to be involving 'inside' the relationship itself...that why i say it earlier that the catalyst can be use for bonding or separating...i bet you hold pretty much secret, and let it be secret okey...ssyyyhhh...

for me, catalyst give me a favour..there where i go for soul chatting..haha..even how well we could be, there still a small space for defect to happen..and perhaps the third parties can give a helping hand..but remember, we are the one who responssible to sattle it down in our own way..not the catalyst...if the one itself cannot do it, then nor should the third parties..b'cos you dont want to be drag into other people problems...

we cannot go trough this life all by yourself...be thankfull to the people around us..maybe you are not good to be a catalyst but make sure you will appreciate the catalyst as it be part of your journey in here...haha...if it werent for catalyst, perhaps the reaction whouldn`t happen at all...thx catalyst, i learn very much from you..and now i know how to fly~~~

sigh "when the catalyst is increase, rate of reaction increase..in contradiction..when the catalyst is decrease, rate of reaction decrease"

Hana Balqis

"tak perlu mencari teman secantik Balqis,

andai diri tak sehebat Sulaiman...

...mengapa mengharapkan teman setampan Yusof,

jika kasih tak setulus Zulaikha...

...tak perlu mengharapkan teman seteguh Ibrahim,

andai diri tak sekuat Hajar...

...& mengapa di damba teman hidup sesempurna Muhammmad,

jika ade keburukan pada diri"

Keinginan Itu Bkn Hak Milik

lumrah manusia..xprnh rse puas hati dgn ape yg dh dikecapi..selalu ingin kn yg lebih..manusia nie tamak...tamak mengejar kemewahan..mengejar yg cntik..tamak dgn mse yg ade..semua nye mengejar dunia..dunia lah syurga abadi...hidup secara fantasi..bkn pd realiti...bangga dgn segala benda yg manusia kini snjungi...kereta..duet..rumah..status..n etc~~~

x slh mengharapkn ape yg terbaek dlm idup, dan ia nyer mmg bgus pn...setiap hati hati kite nie mst mahukn keselesaan..kebahagiaan..ketenangan..kesenangan...xde yg mahukn kesusahan..perit hidup d ats muka bumi ini..itu mmg lumrah..aku pn mgharapkn yg terbaek pd tiap2 detik yg berlalu spnjng hari smpai ke hari tua..smpai ke generasi akn dtg..itu sume harapan...yg pasti keinginan adalah sesuatu yg x dpt lari dri semua org..

kenape nk paksa keinginan tersebut..kalo ia nyer bkn ape yg mampu d capai oleh kite.. knpe kite nk berfantasi?? biarla berpijak d bumi yg nyata..adekala nyer, kite ptt trima yg ape kite ingin kn bkn nyer selalu akn jd hak milik kite jua..kite yg merancang, tuhan yg menentukn...x slh utk mencuba..tp kalo dh nyata bkn hak kite..so, jgn la degil..trima jer dgn hati terbuka...biarpn pahit...kalo kite terlaku memaksa..takot ia nyer memberi kerugiaan kpd mane2 pihak..sumtime to let it go is better than to keep it by your side..mungkin rezeki kite kt tmpt laen..just wait..sure we will get what we deserve...perhaps one day i will~



sigh "ku menyimpan hasrat padamu..namun ia nyer hnyea impian"

Marah Anak Adam

hey, bes x marah2 org nie? kurang ajar kau! kang aku bg terajang nie kang baru tau diam! perangai cm haram btol!~~~ huu..cm rse sembelit kn..teran2 pnyea teran pastu lepas jgk...fuhh~ cmtu r rse marah org...mase marah tu anak mata tajam aje..kening berkerut aje...bibir ketip kemas..nafas cm bunyi kete enjin turbo...perhh...sme cm lembu jantan naek angin r jgk! haha...

biase r tu..kite nie kn ank cucu cicit adam nie xdpt lari dri hasutan iblis..kan si iblis nie dh ckp nk memesongkn kite..nk bwk kite join dyorg skali kat neraka durjana..iblis nie pandai menghiasi sesuatu yg buruk, maksudnyer..bende yg xbtl pn kite nmpk btl..hah! kalo kite tertpu dgn hasutan nie, make kite dh jd org2 yg rugi...

hurmm, aku pn prnh rse marah org..sbb xpuah ati..ade tu sbb kurang ajr..spe xmrh kn kalo ade org wat dajal dgn kite..tp berbaloi ker sgt nk naek angin slalu nie...macho eh kalo jenis panas baran?? ko rse macho ker?? kpd ladies plak, korang rse perempuan nie mmg ptt marah laki spya laki tu syg or beri perhatian lebih?? hurmm..mybe btol jgk..kalo xmarah, ble la nk repect laki kn..then, bg ladies lak, kalo x mrh ble lg nk laki nie dgr kate..btl x?? haha...

anyhow, aku lebih ske in opposite way..marah tu bkn la mandatori..x perlu kne marah aje tiap mase..give chance to other if they are doing anything wrong..sbb ble kite bg peluang kpd org laen, kite at the same time give chance to ourself...marah hnyea la the last choice..or xprlu marah pn xpe..just leave it that hearted feeling as you know that it will not give any benefit to you after all...lgpn bg aku la, jika seorg itu yg mempunyai tahap kesabaran yg tggi..then i can say that the person is growing up already...org tu adalah lebih matang..he will look macho and she will look beautiful..haha...

btw, ape yg bes sgt time marah...huuu~ ade bes jgk..bleh bantai aje org time tu..sme ade fizikal way or secara verbal...verbal way is much much hurt..seriously..sumtime it can kill...aaggrrhhh~ lepas marah org nie rse lega kn...tp...btl ker?? adekah akn lega sepenuhnyer??....hurmm, xjgk..kite akn rse beban nyer nnt...kalo kite masih berhati baek, then bnde nie pasti kite akn alami..perasaan keliru..lpas kite mrah sumone, then later that u feel there is a feeling start to grow inside your deep heart.. wajar kah aku mrh die td?? kasar sgt ker aku marah?? die okey x dgn aku nnt?? tp...kau akn menidakkn sume feeling yg mangacau jiwa kecil kau tu...knpe??...ape ag, "EGO" r tu...how long your ego will stand? sampai sudah ker? haha..depend la on that person itself..

kite akn rse xsempurna dgn situasi itu...perasaan seperti berslh mungkin? xtaula..rse benci pn ade sbb jiwa kecil tu asyik ggu aje..kn dh marah org..asl xleh biarkn aje??..haha.. hey, igt la..kite kn biasenyer mudah berselisih phm dgn org yg kite rapat..semakin kite knl rapat seorg itu, semakin mudah berlaku kecik ati kalo silap cara nyer la..sbb tu la kite mudah gaduh dgn kwn baek kite...dgn parent kite..dgn adik beradik kite..dgn gf or bf kite n etc..so? why am i highlighting on this...haha..cmni, kalo gduh dgn org yg terdekat..biase nyer kite akn rse x senang jika nnt terpksa bertemu dgn org yg kite mrh tu ag kn...

knpe nk dera hati itu lg?? knpe nk kandung prsaan xenak itu lg?? lepas kn..lepas kn ia..try la buke ati itu..jd la seorg yg pemaaf...bile kite dpt maafkn org, then itu la saat pling indah...kau akn rse lega..perasaan lega itu adalah pling bermakna..bkn nyer prasaan lega ble lpas kite marah org..but, kalo still x dpt nk maafkn jgk..then stay away...xpyh nk paksa diri..mybe org tu x ptt d maafkn lngsung..huu~

time aku menulis blog nie, sbnrnye it happen to me..tp very glad that aku dh lepas kn rse sakit nyer menahan prasaan berslh sbb marah sumone important tempoh hari..terase lega..thx to my mum b`cos she show me the way to let it go..haha...sempena taun baru hijriah 1431 arini..jom sme2 kite hijrah ke arah yg terbaek!!!

Sigh "kebencian itu adalah racun hati"

well X means...

~a kiss...ciuman~

~it`s feminie...milik wanita~

~expression of affection...bukti cinta~

....but it could also be...

an evil stamp of hatred.....tanda kebencian!

For the Fairest

...

A secret makes a woman.....



.....woman~





A woman with a secret.......


...makes her look...




.....beautiful~




in such a way...that..


....she got....

.

..

...

.....XXX.....


Sigh "am i able to met her by chance"