Memories

I told myself

if she turn back

I'll hold her forever

but....

she move on

and me, standing here

just able to see her walk away

broken heartedly

Who still remembers?

who was the one who said "Forever Love Me"

no one knows

a sentence of the past

will become the wound in the future

as the time passed away

eventually nobody remembers the gentleness of the past

that day, You and I

holding hand together

promise that we will walk till the end

Now...

we have all forgotten

how long we had walked in this journey

at that time, in our hearts it is clear

there will be one day

that one day, all will stop

in our hearts, we just pray

hold on in faith

let time tell the truth

although i'm afraid  

little by little, when the sun no longer shine

after the sky darken

we all don't know whether later to regret or not  

As we walk

we are both started to feel tired

but there is no way walk back

two heart are all confused

no matter what we say

nothing can help with it

Oh my dear, why?

perhaps you don't understand either

two people who had love each other so much

waited the other person to start talking the reason for breaking up

who still remembers at the time when love started to change

in the eyes, You and I

we saw the different skies

we walked too far

finally, we reach the intersection

at the point

when both of us

want to have opposite dreams

do you still remembers?

saying "Forever Love Me"

no one knows

that sentence of the past

will become the wound in the future

p/s maybe goodbye is a painful way of saying i love you

Solanin

Solanin is basically is a poison. 

A poison that i didn't understand.

But a feeling running trough my mind-an emotion.

Mistaken thoughts from beyond the sky

A life spent saying goodbye?

The little piece of the future I saw

Was waving goodbye

The small room i once lived in

Is now occupied by someone else

The horrible things I said to you

The days that were wasted

Perhaps if I'd taken that chance,

if I could go back to that day

But I'll never be that person again

Even if that frail happiness

had somehow lingered on

A bad seed would have surely sprouted

So, I guess this is goodbye

The cold cans of coffee from freezing winters

That long rainbow coloured scarf

I stroll through the back alley

It all comes back to me now

Even if that frail happiness

had somehow lingered on

A bad seed would have surely sprouted

So, I guess this is goodbye

I guess

Goodbye, that's enough

You can cope anywhere

Goodbye, I'll manage somehow without you

Goodbye, that's what I'll do

p/s Asian Kung Fu Generation - Solanin

You Look Happy Now

Waiting for the traffic light on the streets, 

I see you out the window and unintentionally I said hi

But uh-oh, we’re broken up right now 

Blankly I just look at you for 2 seconds 

I turn my head and calm my shocked heart 

I look strangely at passing by people

But you know what, you’re looking at me too 

And you’ve become stone in that very spot

Why is my heart that was determined to move on, 

Shaking, swaying and just pestering me? 

The light changed- I have to go now

I’ll pass you by, goodbye, you. Please be well.

You look good, I guess you’re doing well 

Your hairstyle changed- it looks good 

You’re pretty so whatever you do looks good 

Honestly, I was really worried 

That you would be hurting, that it would be hard 

That you would be sadder than I am 

But you look good- I guess I was being stupid

You look good- I guess I was being stupid

I was worried if you couldn’t take the breakup well 

But now that I accidentally saw you, my heart is at rest

I turn my head again- I found you among the people

But next to you is a new guy

I guess that’s the person you told me about back then

Back then I hoped for your unhappiness but now it’s different 

Please be happy. You know I mean that right? 

He should know too, that you have a special sensitivity

I need to step on the pedal and go but 

Why isn’t my foot moving? I need to step on the pedal and go but 

Why isn’t my foot moving? I need to step on the pedal and go but Why can’t I move?

Green light is on, so its time to go

But I can’t just leave you and go 

I hear honks sayin I gotta move

But this feels like the end.

Sunset

I must say..i do miss you sunset..

Oh rain..

Please dont take away my sunset..

Without you..it soak my heart..

When you gone, hardly any rainbow accross my universe..

For that i need you..

p/s i need strength to keep on this road.

The best and most beautiful things

They said The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched - they must be felt with the heart. ♥

So I ask myself "Dear Heart, are you with me?" 

Life got you down?

Sejak dua tiga bulan ini, aku rasa life aku up and down jer. Mula-mula aku rasa biasa jer, but later on I come to realize that this is wrong. My time table was changing way to far from being a medical student. Rupanya aku menipu diri sendiri. Disebalik gelak tawa, aku stress rupanya. Life stress. :'( stress being in this medical society. the people who just care only themselves and being completely calculative. I hate that. I want to learn something but end up being nothing. Seriously, is this what i dream about before i choose this field? No No! Masih ade 6 bulan, life is a game. You need plan to win this. Stress ni buat aku sedar, after this aku perlu lebih power dari orang yang lain. Ya Allah-Kau bimbing la daku dalam hiudp ku ini. Moga setiap perjalanan hidup aku merapatkan diri ini padaMu. Sesungguhnya Kau Maha Mengetahui.  

Siapa Setia

Masih kah ada ruang di hati mu? aku bertanya. namun setiap kali pertanyaan di balas dgn jawapan yang sama. sepi sunyi tanpa kata. silent is beautiful. itu je yg aku temui. Itu dulu, skrng bukan kisah aku lagi. Kini aku banyak melihat. hati lelaki hati perempuan. mana lagi setia?

Setia itu ape sebenar nyer? perasaan ker atau perbuatan? hurmm~ atau dua-dua skali? well terpulang lah pada pandangan masing-masing. Yang aku faham senang jer, bukan kayu tiga, bukan buat donno kat relationship. Itu setia. But lately makin ramai yang dah lama cinta end up the same way. kalau masih stay pun, ramai yang main pasang belakang senyap-senyap. aku cume tengok jela gelagat jiwa muda. nasib la korang, nak sangat berjanji cinta abadi. aku tgk mcm perencah instand adabi jer adela. takde la abadi sgt pun. 

Yang jelas nyer. Laki mmg tak ramai yg setia. kalau yg setia pun, aku tgk gaya tak cam lelaki sgt. kene control je lebih. Baru kau tahu, bkn senang nak jaga hubungan bila berjauhan. Bagi yg perempuan lak, senang jer percaya kata manis. kadang-kadang aku pun heran, kenapa still degil nak stay dgn laki yg dah penah menipu dalam hubungan. Jawab diaorg, sbb syg tak boleh nak buat apa dah. Lemah betul jawapan mcm tu. But well perempuan mmg kuat setia, no wonder they suffer a lot. selalu menangis bila berhadapan situasi sebegini.

Lelaki pulak, selagi dia tak fikir rumah tangga, selagi itu lah dia bebas. bebas untuk menerima dan menberi. Bebas untuk memilih apa erti setia. Selagi mana perempuan terima jer janji manis yang tak ke mana tu, selagi itu la die akan di lukai. Dan bila lelaki sudah habis dgn janji die,  maka pada time itu lah dgn siapa dia akan bersama. Perjalanan hidup suka dan duka, mengajar kita membesar dalam membuat pilihan hidup. Aku nampak yang pernah kecewa mostly akan makin kuat agama. makin pandai bicara. makin pandai mejaga diri. Baguslah. Sekarang kau rasa kau dah tahu dah apa itu setia? -Maaf aku tak pernah tahu.  :)